suicide . the way to go ?

life is certainly not going well for me .

school is still okay , for i've found some reliable and trust-worthy friends .

at least that's one good thing compared to all the bad things i'm facing now .

as i grow older . i find it hard to confide in someone .

even him .

i do know that i can always confide in God . but ,

it's just not the same .

i know he hears me . but i don't .

i need some verbal help .

someone to share my worries , woes and sadness .

i'm still not recovering well from the many deaths of my family members .

after all , i'm only 14 .

even i could not trust this blog . as it's not private and many people can read it .

i'm too lazy to make it private as there's quite a number of e-mails to punch .

i just hope someone would come to my rescue now .

i just hope i can survive yet another turmoil .

and for BINGBING who's probably reading this .

don't MAKE FUN OF THIS YOU PIG . hahahas . :D