depressed.

after looking at everyone's blog, i've noticed how much they've changed and how much i haven't.
they're all working hard for their future while i'm ruining mine step by step.
what am i doing? i don't know.
i want to change. but,
change is hard.
seriously, it's damn hard.
i hope that God will be there through my changes.
& that he'll help me through it all.
started to attend church now. i hope i won't fall back to my previous pathetic state.
& i hope that my relationship with Him , ivan ,friends & family will be stronger than ever.
i pray very very very very hard now. everyday.
God, please listen to this tiny prayer of mine, and grant it. (:

ps. i am super in love with TOKIO HOTEL.
hahahas. bill kaulitz is my love !

ain't he cute/sexy or not? his twin is also cute too ! but bill is smexier ! :D