drifting apart .

what's the purpose of having friends and being one ?

i guess it is to always be there for each other and all .

but someone rather , this doesn't really apply much to the friends i thought i had .

they call me their friends . but i feel not .

i treat them as though they're like my own family .

they make use of me .

i feel hurt . and nobody even bothers to ask how was i feeling .

sure , they're there only when someone from my family leaves me for a better place .

but after all the hoo-ha , they don't bother anymore .

i feel that it's difficult to blend in . i'm like a big toe sticking out of nowhere .

somehow , they started to forget about me .

forget that i was once their friend .

once their family .

once their confidante .

all of them says that we're one big family .

but to me , i feel more like an outcast .

i really have been drifting apart from them .

i sincerely want to change to a different enviroment .

but i don't have the guts and i just can't bear to leave ..

it just feels like the only real true friends i have are those from school and the friends i make outside .

not those whom i've grown up with .

seems funny eh ?

but it's not . and these are all true .

it's weird . but that's the way of life .

life is hard . and i'm learning everyday to cope with all the task and problems .

i'm happy to have friends who care and i thank you all dearly .

from the bottom of my heart .

that means royce , faith , laura , saeyeon , kimzy , yishan , khai , edward , dominic , shouyat , sharon , maingkun , kaiting , yongjian , yongjing and lots more .

i love you guys ;D