momo !

our future pet dogs' name will be momo-kun aye? :D

translation: maomao :DDD

garang guni in the making.

after hours and hours of scouring my old items,
many memories just came flooding my brain.
it's like a sudden flashback, where i'm standing and looking at what was taking place in the past.
i saw many happy moments in school.
many letters, many gifts, many surprises and all.
i savaged out a thousand letters from my secondary school friends.
these letters were signed off with a "i love carmen" note.
i wonder if they really meant that even at that time.
life was great back then. being naive and all,
i always thought everyone was good.
but after all these uneventful accounts, i seriously felt a harsh knock of reality.
people aren't what i thought they were.
on a solemn note, i miss those times.
i miss those friends. i miss everything.
i even miss my old self. i wish that i can bring her back.
but life had changed me, and i'll never be able to bring her back.
just like how i'll never be able to bring back those happy memories to life.
those were the times where my grandma, grandpa, uncle, aunt and everyone who passed away was still alive.
i really wish i can go back into time to relish all these happy memories once again.
i'm keeping all these little stuff, little mementos so that i'll never forget them.

p.s, i have way too much junk.

my wants & wishes.

hee hees :D
christmas is coming soon! so yea, this post is dedicated to my wants!

hahahahahas. :D

my wants

:Ladybug Ear Buds [$15]

:Holga Starter Kit {multi colour}[$117 , hk585]

[description]

Holga cameras, originally developed in Hong Kong in the early 80s, are known for their unique distortions such as overlapped exposures and light leaks (which renders the photos in bright, almost otherworldly colors). This starter kit comes with a firehouse red camera, film, and a great book with tips and tricks for operation and over 350 gorgeous Holga shots. We feel a new hobby coming on...

:The Pop Art Cam [$20]

Create your own Warhol-inspired masterpiece with this modern artist's camera. Each 4x6 picture gives you a red, green, yellow and blue snapshot. Who knows, one of your prints may bring you 15 minutes of fame!

all these are only available through the net, but if anyone has any of these items to sell, please tag and tell me the price :D hahas.

thanks! :D btw, i'll be leaving for taiwan on the 5th of december till 12th. :D
& i think my blogshop will be set up soon. hahahs. see you ! :D

sick

my insomnia's so bad that i hallucinate.

singing time! :D

hahas. went to guanliang's house today for our music cafe performance rehearsal.
went quite well actually. :D
xining did a great job on arranging the sequence and all. hahas.
& i seriously think that we all sounded really good together! :D
harmonizing with one another makes me feel closer to them.
& i thank God for that.
true friends are hard to find, but if you believe in God,
they're really easy to spot.
i'm learning to take things one step at a time, and leave all the difficult and mind boggling stuff to God.
hahas. okay, i'll end here, must continue watching my show! :D

swimming :D

hellos! i rot at home today.
& i am retarded. managed to fall asleep in the wee hours of the morning and woke up at 3pm.
so i'm quite tired and i have EYEBAGS now. T.T
boohoo. anyways, i changed my blogskin again! hahahas. :D
nice right? :P i got good taste! [i know i know, very bhb.]
i went swimming with baby earlier on, like about 8pm i think.
it's been ages since i last swam in yck swimming complex.
and because of the long absence in the water, my stamina dropped like crazy.
i only managed to conk out 5 or 6 laps.
i know i know, super duper lousy la.
but hey! i'm going to train okay? hahas. must get back in shape! :D
hahahas! and i've finally sorted out what are the items i'm going to sell soon!
so people, keep your eyes open cause my blogshop is opening real soon!
[as soon as i pick a new blogskin and measure the clothings.]
hahas. i'll end for now, leave a message on my tag board people! :D

squashed.

damn my boobs. being a c cup is no fun at all.

there's not much nice clothings that are available for c cup sized people.

the reason on why i'm ranting about this is because, recently baby bought a new dress for me which is super ultra pretty. {the material is super soft too.}

we bought it online and i had forgotten to check the ptp status.

turns out, the bust is way too small for me la.

i had to squeeze a lot to get in. damn.
this dress is for people with no boobs.

for people like this. >

look at how boobless she is. T.T

eewww, i'll never want to be like that.

what's so fun about being a sized 0 model? i mean,

isn't the boobs like the all female most precious asset?

people! design more clothes for people who have assets to flaunt!

not make more girls/women be anorexic in order to squeeze into pretty clothings!

if i am a designer, i'll never take up the job of creating clothes that requires females to be a size 0.

anyways, anyone who knows of good tailors etc, kindly tag on my tagboard or sms me. i need to alter this dress asap! T.T thanks (:

why is my art so lousy ? DDD:

i seriously can't do anything that's related to art.
even the art of straightening my ridiculous hair. D:
waaaah! why can't i have my mommy's & daddy's art talent?!
why must i be the only one in the family who has a talent for something different?
my mom and dad can draw/paint/sketch/hell anything !
kudos to my brother. but i'm the only one who can't! D:
oh woe is me. DDD:
i seriously need to pick up super-duper-many-many skills man,
since i like styling myself up.
oh, the price to pay for being VAIN.
anywhos, watched "the coffin" today with baby during the night.
earlier on in church, wasn't feeling well and was super sleepy cause i'm suffering from dumb-ass insomnia.
so yea, during the sermon i koed. :P
*i'm sorry God, forgive me pretty please? :) *
but i still managed to grasp the whole topic and understood what wenjiao ganshi was trying to tell us.
thanks uncle for offering to bring me to the oh-so-scary doc! :D
feeling much better now btw. hahas.
okay, i think i'm getting sleepy now. gotta grab the chance now!

seeyou peeps ! :D
p.s : i didn't scream while watching the movie. & i didn't close my eyes! :D
i only curled up like a ball.... :P

big bruise. D;

"the only photo of our romantik date. :/"

yesterday was "red vs white competition" ,
and guess what? the girls won again! :D
hahahas. and i'm the leader somemore. :D super happy la.
though i was a bit stoney at the beginning but after a little warm-up, i was super excited la!
hahas. didn't sleep well at all, only managed to sleep at 6 in the morning, that's why i was so stoney.
anyways, enjoyed my time in church though i did get hurt.
hahas. now got one orh qi lor.
btw, i miss weiliang. hahas.
i haven't seen him this whole year at all la.
so yea, hope that i'll get to see him soon! :D
anyways, just a random note, I LOVE CLOTHES AND SHOPPING! :D
i know it's really random but i'm not in a clear state now so pardon me. :P
hahas. okay peeps, i'm going off now. see you !


p.s, that's the only photo we took while ice-skating. too busy concentrating on not falling . :P

hey'all :D

hahas. i decided to make my blog a open one again after many complains of not getting an invite..
and i'm pretty much too lazy to re-invite again. so yea. :D
anyways, went to ice-skate at kallang leisure center with melly melly! :D
hahas. it's been so long since i've last went out with her!
enjoyed the day! hahahas. somemore only the two of us. :P
tres romantik aye? ;D
anywhos, will post the picture tmr or so.
i'm excited for this sats "red vs white competition" & next sats "music cafe" !
basically, this is an event {red vs white competition}held by my church youths & mentors where the guys and girls compete in a series of games and all.
so it's gonna be a hell lots of fun! hahahahahahas.
oh yea, i'm bringing someone there too! :D
the girls are going to trash the guys this year too! :D
next sats event is the music cafe where all of us put up something musical to entertain everyone.
still am not sure of what my group is performing but i hope we'll do it well. :)
i can't wait to go out with kt too! {my long time friend (: }
we're going to the movies, though it's simple, i'm sure that we'll have a blast!
ohkays, i'll stop for now. see you peeps soon! :D

:D

hello ! :D
i'm feeling very happy today, like all my troubles are finally gone!
hahas. actually, they're not gone, it's just that i've learnt to leave everything to God and he'll lead me through it all.
i've also started praying more often and i'm feeling great.
cause when i leave everything to Him, i know they're in good hands.
hahas. i got some help from friends too (:
thanks you guys ! :D
so yea, i'm trying to change now.
so watch out world! there'll be a whole new carmen soon! :D

depressed.

after looking at everyone's blog, i've noticed how much they've changed and how much i haven't.
they're all working hard for their future while i'm ruining mine step by step.
what am i doing? i don't know.
i want to change. but,
change is hard.
seriously, it's damn hard.
i hope that God will be there through my changes.
& that he'll help me through it all.
started to attend church now. i hope i won't fall back to my previous pathetic state.
& i hope that my relationship with Him , ivan ,friends & family will be stronger than ever.
i pray very very very very hard now. everyday.
God, please listen to this tiny prayer of mine, and grant it. (:

ps. i am super in love with TOKIO HOTEL.
hahahas. bill kaulitz is my love !

ain't he cute/sexy or not? his twin is also cute too ! but bill is smexier ! :D

shopping spree ! :D

went shopping with baby on the 2nd of November which is on a Sunday.
when i first saw him at citilink,i was so mad at him because he wasn't dressed properly.
i mean,i take time and effort to dress up nicely while he can just throw anything on without taking a look at the mirror.
so i dragged him to Topman and picked out many clothes for him to try on.
btw, he needs a new wardrobe..
his clothes are so little and OLD...[like him :P]
anyways,he bought a pair of jeans and a new top which were chosen by me.
and to top off the whole look, i bought him a bracelet from Topman too (:
hahas. it matches mahh.
so then i headed off to Diva while he went to change into his new clothes.
i saw many cute things that i'd love to have and so i practically went ga-ga at everything.
when he came to find me,i showed him everything that i liked and then he said he'll buy some for me which completely shocked me cause he seldom approves of me shopping!
so he ended up buy a bracelet,a pair of earrings and 12 different kinds of headbands for me ! (:
i am sooooooo HAPPY! :D
then we went to FOX apparel and i picked out a very nice top and shorts for him and a very nice dress for myself.
after trying it out, baby bought the top for himself and the dress for me ! :D [there's a 30% off too !]
i was all smiles and so i decided to change into that dress cause it matches his current outfit (:
after that,we went to many shops to browse through as there were many many many sales !
hahas. we ended up in Hula&co.
he bought me another dress again !hahahahahs.
i was so happy that my smile was practically plastered on!
so then we head off to bukit batok cause i wanted to join my mom and brother for dinner.
baby went home after that and that concludes my only shopping spree for this holiday ..
i can't really go out for some reasons so my life would not be as exciting as most of you peeps.
except that i'll be going to Taiwan on the 5th of December till 12th of December ..
anyways, i'll stop for now.. this is getting too long........ :P